updates, maybe?

Hmmm.
Saje2 nak mengepost bende2 lagho lagi ke dalam page aku yang sangatlah mandom. I'm thinking of going for other layers. I mean, blog layouts. Suggestion, anyone?

Oh yeah, it has been a tiring month for me, so far. alah, macam tak biasa. tiap bulan dah mcm ni. but hell, it's going to be far more tiring, SOON. but definitely tak sabar for april: INDO TOUR and LMAO OF GOD in SING! :D

As for Beatburns, for me it's a mix-up. i'm fired up, and in the meantime frustrated as well. bukan sebab band, but MY 640GIG HARDRIVE yang buat aku rasa nak mengamuk satu selayang. WORDS OF ADVICE (untuk yang baru2 nak mula buat home rec esp), sila pastikan PC anda up to date dgn virus def. lagi bagos kalau beli PC baru yang high end. I have few IMPORTANT folders yang aku takleh nak bukak, and those involving my recording shits. FML. dahla nak release EP soon enough. adoi.. dugaan dugaan.

And now jugak aku realize, ramai jugak yang bengkak ngn aku senanya. latestnya, ada lah seorang hamba Allah ni, bengang kot agaknye aku comment page 'awek' dia, kot. and like, above all people, he picked on me. LOL. hai.. manusia. takper lah. aku hidup mati pun seorang, TUHAN yang tentukan, so apa aku kisah pun. ramai je lagi yang lain hantar threat kat aku. not to diss you bud, but i can assure you it's least bit amusing to me. i got tonnes of things to deal with, and i got no space for yours. :) hai.. manusia.. manusia. tak apa lah.

yang penting, aku happy dengan life aku sekarang.

:)

APRIL! HERE I COME!

a kind of numb.

My mind keeps telling me that "everything should work out for you man, don't you worry"
keeps telling me, that "i'm but your best adviser at the worst of time"
that "you, my man, can count on me";

I'd say,
pretty much,
I've succumbed to my lying subliminal thoughts.

I insist,
on being the most stubborn, selfish jerk that i can hardly imagine i ever be, by doing that.

I inhale,
every bits of pain that i endure, and yet to, by trusting myself.

I weep,
most of the time. But not physically. And it fucking hurts, it does.

I fail,
in most crossroads i ever bumped into. Dodging for left when i'm supposed to turn right.

I mend,
most people in my life, giving them a bit of hopes and dreams, while i'm practically living in fear and failure.

I choose,
to let my love unrequited, let alone be discovered, when i know that it leads towards a massive heartbreaking blow.

I submit,
every single chance, to false hopes.

I walk,
towards the end of it all, when it is actually just the beginning.




My hands are numb now,
But my mind keeps telling me that "you shouldn't stop".

I can never tell, when,
will i ever get the chance to say, "fuck you, mind!".

Never.

Stay Bright, Little Fireflies.

Why do i have to sing this alone at that time when Saosin came to KL? Gaaah.
Yeah, another lame post.

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Sinking…
I’m falling in too deep and I regret it
“I don’t know”
It’s all we have left to say.
How do we pick ourselves up now?
If the clouds bring the rain,
Before we evaporate,
I’ll never be able to say…
I love you.

I love you,
I love you!

Stay bright, little fireflies,
Make light before my eyes…
Stay bright, little fireflies,
Make light before my eyes…

Thinking…
About all my regrets and contradictions.
Where do I go?
I thought this would start like rain…
Do I learn to grow up now,
Or just fade away
Under this tree of shame?
I will not be able to say…
I love you,
I love you!

Stay bright, little fireflies,
Make light before my eyes…
Stay bright, little fireflies,
Make light before my eyes…

And all you do,
And all you say,
Washes away,
Away with the rain…

And all you thought
Would never change
Washes away,
It will never be the same…

‘Cuz all I see
And all I feel
Takes me away,
Takes me away…

And all you do,
And all you say,
Washes away,
Away with the rain!

And all you thought
Would never change
Washes away!
It will never be the same!

Stay bright, little fireflies…
Make light before my eyes…...

Stay bright, little fireflies!
Make light before my eyes!
Stay bright, little fireflies!
Make light before my eyes!

Wish I could love you…
And I don’t regret the rain…
Now that I’m sinking,
I will just sink away…

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Nice.
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Hmmm.. idea, idea..

Serius, aku in a mood of writing songs skang ni.

Well, so far, kitorg dah ada 2 lagu recorded (tak termasuk yang belum rec.. hehehe). korang boleh dgr la kat profile kitorg.

And yeah.. still byk lagi nak rakam ni, $$$ je. Haha. Nah, baru ko tau nak buat mende ni bukan senang.

And yes, akhir bulan ni, record lagi lagu kat Kamar Seni (kepunyaan AG Coco/Hujan). Aih.. hopefully it's going to be okay.

Oh anyway, saje je nak mengupdate bende yang tak penting pun, chech. XD till then!

This part of my life is called, "being stupid"

Yeah, indeed, i am.


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Foolish act, moe. Foolish.

Foolish, but happy. :)

Aku sayang dia.

Even tho dari 'jauh', walaupun 'dekat'.
Even tho zahirnya lain, batinnya lain.
Even tho dia tak tahu, sebab aku simpan sorg2 taknak kasi dia tahu.

Even tho aku tahu yang somehow i'll end up hurting myself, i'll choose to be in this way.

Even tho mungkin dia rasa apa yang aku rasa, aku tak simpan apa2 harapan.

Even tho the answer wud probably be NO. A big one.

Sebab tu aku cuba happykan dia walaupun aku sendiri tak happy.
Sebab tu aku tak pernah bersungut buat apa-apa utk dia.
Sebab tu aku sanggup buat apa sahaja utk dia, sesukar mana pun condition aku.
Sebab tu aku tahan diri untuk bagi tahu apa yang aku rasa.

Biarlah.

Which, hopefully, one day dia akan sedar betapa aku sayang dia. Dia sorang je. :)


Unrequited? So be it.

:)

Up-fcuking-dates, yo!

Haha.. macam nak buat entry, like, one entry per month je. Jeles gak tgk member aku update entry dekat tiap hari. Tengok Nad, siap upload pics kaw2 lagi.. haha! (Jgn mare yeeee Nad.. hehe :3 )

Aaanyway.

Just to let you guys know, I've been kinda busy lately. Have just finished the mixing (even tho not actually finalizing it.. pfft) for OUR first single entitled "Insomnia". Yep, OUR band, BEATBURNS, which means, I am one of them :D And for those yang nak (KALAU nak la kan) dgr, just gimme your email, and I'll send you the song. Mmg nak give away je. Apa barang jual2 CD ni. Haha. But yes, we do have actual plans to come up with a Demo EP which will be released soon enough, early this year. And whole lotta plans.. which will be updated soon. Hee. :3

Introducing, Beatburns. (L to R: Nik, Gas, Celine, Aaron, err.. aku)

And oh, speaking of mixing2 ni, aku nak la cerita satu benda. Ada satu band ni, pernah jugak la record ngn aku. Well, to cut it short, even tho memakan masa berbulan (due to memasing punya commitment mcm haram tightnye termasuklah aku, undeniable), akhirnya siap. Dan aku akui, product tu BELUM finalize lagi, dan betapa bodohnye, aku bagi semua raw data files kat diorg. And guess what? It turns out tiba2 dia kata mix tak best la apa la.

Bengong kan? Dah terang2 aku kata, benda tu belum final lagi, aku suh dengar dlu, kasi input mana yang kurang, aku buat balik, tup2 dia dok maki caci apa suma. Siap nak mintak balik separuh payment yang aku dah amik (nasib baik aku amik separuh, kalau tak satu sen pun aku tak dapat. Pandai gak aku. Kuikuikui). Bendanya dah habis, cuma nak touch up je pun.

Dan paling best, tup2 aku tgk dia dah siap upload kat facebook as video, PAKAI PRODUCT AKU. siap HQ video lagi. hahaha.

Hahaha. Kalau tak best, bro, takyah la pakai hasil kerja aku yang cacat macat tu. Buat la balik kat JD Pop Shuvit from zero. Bayar la RM1k per song. Kan? Tak pun suh la Greg Henderson mix, hantar master kat Rick Rubin. Kan korg kaya? Nasib la aku ni penyabar time nak record - kalau sampai power chord pun nak tanya aku balik "apa tu eh". Beli multieffects mahal, tapi tak tahu ada tuner kat dalam tu. Aku siap bagi lagi tips nak reformat balik lagu supaya kemas, tak nampak macam budak sekolah baru belajar main instrumen. Ni nyanyi pun mcm nak taknak. Sibaik tak blast mic si Saiful. Kalau kena ngn JD, kompem dia halau balik. Hai.. manusia2. Takpelah, good luck weh. Semoga kalian menjadi band yang terkenal suatu hari nanti. :)

Ah well. That's life.

Tu bi kontiniuddddd.


dessert bite: te best is yet to come. :3